Happy Birthday, Darnie~~

I am so sorry that your present is late!!!! for 1 hour....
sorry sorry....

This birthday, due to our final exams....
we can't able to meet on your birthday and celebrate for you~
sorry dear..
although I having my 1st paper today...
I won't forget about your present... =)

Hope you like it...
I used 5 hours to make it~

I love you &
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
may your dream comes true~
muacksxx!!! ^^

I saw him today~

yes...
I saw him today
I really saw him today~
when I just came out from my hostel
heading to sch for frisbee~

Audi A4...
White in colour...
number plate 111...
PHS...?
I texted my bro & asked him~
is that him?

the next moment~
my bro called me...
yes~~ that's him...
"very cool right?"
yea... his car really cool~~
& so so so...
& I was driving~

It's so "cool" that I met him in penang!!
(I don't know how to describe the feeling)
it's like....
it has been a long time~
U want for something~
U hope for a conversation...
even only some coincidence to happen
even only a smile from him~
so that u can have chances to know more about a guy~
or have chances to look into his eyes for a moment...
even only a chance to call him~

"二哥..."
yea... it's him...
my 2nd bro...

I passed by his car
& trying to look into his car~
I purposely took out my spec~
but I see nothing~
his car mirror or window is too dark~
but I hope that he saw me....

I always wonder...
how he think of me in his mind
cute?
or only hate?

but he is always great in my mind...
I like him...
I don't know why..
I hope that I can get some love from him...
I mean love between sibling~

I always hope that I can have more love from my brothers...
I always imagine that,
It's real blisful if I can own my brothers' love...
I like to being pampered by family...
I like to being sayang by brothers...
& this condition only apply to brothers or dad~
not that I don't like my sis~
just that, brothers can give me the safety feel
that no matter what happen to me~
they will always there to protect me...

but,
I know it's hard for him to forgive me...
& I won't blame him...
He should behave like this
I can just hope for that to happen...


bro, do you ever think that...
your youngest sister, me...
hope to get your attention very much?


stay healthy please..

I will always love you~
although you don't... =)

The last day of My Pre-Med

Ha!!
Last Friday was the last day of my pre-med class!!!!
& it was the presentation day~ on our project~
we had been doing research during this whole semester & dealing with the thesis~
it is really a relieve for all of us after the presentation
& now we can fully concentrate on our final!!! ><

let's talk about that day~
I don't know what's actually happening inside my body~
early in the morning I had diarrhea..
in the class~ while classmates were presenting~
I was not feeling so well~
stomachache~~ @@
probably my endocrine system was functioning well?
adrenaline? too nervous? but i was the last group of the day!!
430pm~~ @@ i keep waiting waiting until i was so damn tired..~ ><
luckily my diarrhea stop after took medicine~
BUT!!! the afternoon section~
I keep rushing to toilet~~ too many 'fluid' huh?!
or I was really so nervous? hhahaha!! omg laa~~

finally, my turn~
wana try to make it in an interesting way
but worry my "interesting" turn out to be "not formal"
haha~~ yea... we (me & sheri) did b4~
has some joke during last presentation~
& yea, everyone laugh
but in the end, lecturer said, that was not formal~ @@ sad..
this time not really dare to try again... haha!! ><

the presentation was quite good, for me...
but the questions part...
sheri did it very well~
it's true that I am not good in presenting myself...
especially my opinion...
luckily I have sheri~ ^^ thanks to her~
she is really a good partner~ =)
as compare to many others...
appreciate..

another thing is~
actually, I love formal attire...
everyone look smart.. seriously~
that's when all of us suddenly become so serious about something~
giving another feeling..
everyone support each other..
& never take it easy~~
can see it from those nervous faces... hahaa!!

actually, I love my classmates...
we have been together for around 9 months~
that's cool~
after final~ we will continue this again in Ireland!

FY2009/2010 Give Your Best! =)




















Gonna study really hard for the final~
Try my best to Give my best~
& the GOD will go the rest... ><



wwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
final~ I AM COMING!!!!!! XD

My Dad

I had just received a call from my dad
4.20 in the morning...
& for sure, he just indulging in some alcohol~

he started the conversation by asking me
"what is the time now"
he said that he seldom give me a call
...

he suddenly told me that
he has something that he can't tell my mum, nor my big mum, nor any of his child
but me...
I can feel that he was going to cry...
I can feel that he is really sad
When he told me what is actually happened
I can hear that he was trying hard not to cry~
I can feel that he is blaming himself
although he never told
& I can feel that he feel helpless...
& he is trying to figure out something~

All I can do is just "hm..."
I can't help too~

He talked about mum~
he said he realised that he had neglected my mum for his work..
& his children~
He said he will take more time to accompany my mum~
I am touched.. I felt like crying..
because I always feel that my mum is too lonely...
& I always cry because of that..
I never blamed him~ I know what he is doing, is all for us..
Seriously.. & I know, he feels lonely too...
I trying my best to give them my time even if I really busy
lucky thing is, after my bro found a gf, he really change a lot
He is really good now.. seriously.. especially the way he treat the family..
=) I love my bro~ although there's still something that I hope he can change

towards the end, he mention bout me...
He mention bout the letter!!!
yea.. I did wrote him a letter few months ago..
I thk was around 2 months after I broke up v my ex
That time, I was still emotionally unstable..
although I trying to hide my feeling..
I only told them one month after I broke up with the guy..
my dad was really so worry about me..
he even hug me in his arm n cry with me..
I know he cried.. He loves me really much..
but they never ask me why..
my dad even thought that I am not considerate enough for my ex..
I didnt explain much~ & they didnt ask me at all..
I know they dont wan to hurt me..
After that, I felt that I am really a bad girl if I leave them know bout nothing..
I should be responsible, I should explain everything to them..
that's why I wrote the letter..
I think 3 pages long.. & I told them, my family is still the one for me..
I loves my family a lot..

My dad said he feels really happy..
that I wrote him the letter..
(it's been so long that he didnt reply me anything bout the letter until today~)
he said he really like me the most among his children..
I know.. I can feel that.. =)
I love him a lot too.. ><

Last sunday, I was sleeping by his side..
I dreamt.. nightmare I guess..
& I was like struggling n sobbing in my dream...
he heard.. he woke up & said
"dad is here, dont scare.."
& I heard him calling my mum to look after me..
because mum is awaken..
my mum came & asked me what happen, whether I had nightmare..
I just nod my head.. & she asked me what is all about~
I shake my head & I continue to sleep...
that was really sweet...
although it is a small thing to mention...
& nightmares always there in my sleep..

This is how much I love my family..
It's true..
I can't imagine how my life will be when I go to ireland..
I will miss them like mad...
I can't live without them
& for sure, they can't live their life to the max, without me~
>< the one always make the family cheer~ XP

although these photos are really ugly~~
LOL!! but I love them...
>< ahh... my bro was not wearing his shirt, showing his fats
my dad also not wearing his shirt~ but he has no fats..
my hair was like...........
my mum was the main character! "Happy Mothers Day!"
<3









I wish...
My family members always healthy...