ah.. it's midnight 3.45am..
& I'm still here..
suddenly feel like.. I am scare.
yea.. I'm scare.. I don't reali noe y..
things come... & things go..
watever it brings to us.. we hav to accept it..
no matter it's good or bad~
recalling back the things that happened on me in these few years,
I realised.. ther's always a big change in my life..
previous year in 2009, something just pop out in my naive 19 n forced me to turn into a tough gal.. from tat on, i knew.. I am no longer a kids.. tat i can run away from my responsible as part of the family..
back in 2010, yeah.. my dream broken & i've got to start all over again..
not reali like all over again.. i jz blaming..
it's good thing for me to stay...
dis year,2011... somethings gonna change my life.. perhaps..
my dad got stroke attacked...
it's a light stroke..
but... things.... jz go out of shape...
war is jz going to start...
wat's gonna happen to me?
every step is so scary to me...
but nothing i can do to help..
i reali cant do anything other than keep studying for my exam...
else i wil lose everything..
sometimes, i jz do ntg like now..
blank...
"dont being so lazy n blame on the things happened make u stop studying
u r jz too lazy!"
I reali dont noe whether I am acting lazy or distracted by stuff...
n i reali dnt thk tat i am distracted by those stuff...
N i dont tell anyone coz I dont wan anyone of u to feel tat..
"u r so pitiful.. " the truth is.. I am not pitiful jz because I am not pitiful..
i am jz being lazy badass n finding all theseee excuses so tat i can stop studying for a little while n mayb longer than a little while... ><
someone said.. I dont look stressful at all..
everyday lazy to wake up to attend the sem 1 classes..
studying v a slow slow slow pace...
enjoy my day.....
sleep for8 or even 9 hours a day....
eat like i'm gonna explode my stomach...
watch drama....
taking my own sweet time cooking at the kitchen for at least 3 hours..
skype v my babie everyday...
...
am i gonna fail my exam???????
NO.. I will never failed my exam...
I promise... at least,I'm trying my best...
:)
study? or sleep?
mayb i reali sleep too much.. ><
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
:(
她看看我的手掌
说道:"你很多烦恼吗？"
...
是啊,我有很多烦恼的...
才说到...
我的烦恼又来了~
昨天刚回到KL
今天早上，不管自己多累
我都告诉自己
:"新的学期了,要努力点"
就揉揉眼睛,爬起床了...
虽然课很费一下~
自己又打瞌睡了一下
但至少我在班上...
我真的要努力的...
下午回家前
去了一位阿姨家...
她是妈妈的朋友
她老公突然在两个月前去世了...
我去帮妈妈给红包还有,白金...
我也很怕不懂怎样说话~
但说了说,也有一个小时多~
回到家,broadband不能用
我突然真的很伤心~
也哭了一下~ @@
也没什么好哭的是吧？:)
我就是想哭~
等到多一下下~
烦恼就来了...
什么事情,都在我们背后蔓延...
我不懂怎么说
就是有事情...
我该怎么做
我真的不懂...
我真的很伤心...
但我也不懂我能做什么
要发生的,迟早也会发生...
我真的希望不会有事...
不然,我书都没得读吧...
为什么要欺骗我...
为什么要这样下去
明知故犯
我可以怎么做...
我很辛苦...
我很累...
可以醒了没有！！
我真的很怕！！
我真的很怕...
:( ....
我还有很多功课...
不写了~
:(
说道:"你很多烦恼吗？"
...
是啊,我有很多烦恼的...
才说到...
我的烦恼又来了~
昨天刚回到KL
今天早上，不管自己多累
我都告诉自己
:"新的学期了,要努力点"
就揉揉眼睛,爬起床了...
虽然课很费一下~
自己又打瞌睡了一下
但至少我在班上...
我真的要努力的...
下午回家前
去了一位阿姨家...
她是妈妈的朋友
她老公突然在两个月前去世了...
我去帮妈妈给红包还有,白金...
我也很怕不懂怎样说话~
但说了说,也有一个小时多~
回到家,broadband不能用
我突然真的很伤心~
也哭了一下~ @@
也没什么好哭的是吧？:)
我就是想哭~
等到多一下下~
烦恼就来了...
什么事情,都在我们背后蔓延...
我不懂怎么说
就是有事情...
我该怎么做
我真的不懂...
我真的很伤心...
但我也不懂我能做什么
要发生的,迟早也会发生...
我真的希望不会有事...
不然,我书都没得读吧...
为什么要欺骗我...
为什么要这样下去
明知故犯
我可以怎么做...
我很辛苦...
我很累...
可以醒了没有！！
我真的很怕！！
我真的很怕...
:( ....
我还有很多功课...
不写了~
:(
Friday, February 4, 2011
♥
我发现
我喜欢站在人群外，
看着我最爱的家人，亲人，或朋友门开心的畅谈或玩耍...
我深深感到很感动...
我不在意是否我参与其中
听见他们的笑声
我满足了...
那是另一种快乐~
♥
1,
在沙滩上，
我家人与朋友围在一起烧烤~
有说有笑...
我一个人坐在远方
静静的欣赏他们的快乐...
2,
新年在外婆家，
亲朋戚友在客厅里~
有说有笑...
我陪着外婆在饭厅吃面
看着他们
我，有感动~ :)
等等...
我们不一定要参与其中才可以感到快乐及感动
你也可以祝福你身边的他们拥有快乐...
:)
朋友门，新的一年
要快乐哦！
我，真的很爱你们...
♥
我喜欢站在人群外，
看着我最爱的家人，亲人，或朋友门开心的畅谈或玩耍...
我深深感到很感动...
我不在意是否我参与其中
听见他们的笑声
我满足了...
那是另一种快乐~
♥
1,
在沙滩上，
我家人与朋友围在一起烧烤~
有说有笑...
我一个人坐在远方
静静的欣赏他们的快乐...
2,
新年在外婆家，
亲朋戚友在客厅里~
有说有笑...
我陪着外婆在饭厅吃面
看着他们
我，有感动~ :)
等等...
我们不一定要参与其中才可以感到快乐及感动
你也可以祝福你身边的他们拥有快乐...
:)
朋友门，新的一年
要快乐哦！
我，真的很爱你们...
♥
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
I miss him.. ♥
Yea, he went back to his studyland,Florida already..
I miss him a lot~
That day, on 7th jan..
the last day he staying in malaysia...
I accompany him went around & rushed for everyhing that need to be done..
His medicine, pray, laptop, jeans...
& lastly.. He insisted wanna develop some photos out so that he can stick on his bedroom wall.. I feel so touch. Really.
Before depart to airport.. I spend a little time with him in his room..
I looked at him.. & my eyes started to fill with tears..
& I immediately look away.. telling him..
:" I cannot look at you, I will cry..."
n the tears slowly drip inside through my nose into my throat..
He was ready to go out..
& he hugged me..
In his arms.. I feel really so sad for his leaving..
Finally my tears dropped n I cried a little..
I told myself no.. I cant cry...
He wippend my tears away with his hand & hugged m again..
& I need to take a deep breath n wipped away my tears..
telling myself.. I cannot cry..
After that, we departed first to airport.. which his family wil come later..
He holding me all the way..
He checked in & we waited for his family at MCD..
& we started to take photo for memory..
He took with his family first~ & I was the last one..
Finally, boarding time...
we took all his stuff & stand outside the gate..
All our attention on him.. & also on me~
They expect me to cry..
but all the way.. I keep my tears inside myself..
finally.. he hugged me again..
Unfortunately, I wasn't ready for his hug.. & I didnt manage to hug him back..
Everyone looking at me.. & I was shy to cry..
I was hiding so hard... So hard so hard..
telling myself don't cry..
when he ready to walk in.. I had a strong feeling that wanna pull him back to me..
But I didnt do so.. I know, he still have to go..
The next moment.. I saw his mum crying.. & tears started to fill my eyes again..
inside myself.. I keep shouted for him to come back...
Looking at him at security point.. My heart broken..
I wanted to cry so much... so much so much so much...
but I don't wan his family to see me cry...
At the moment.. I don't know what else I can do..
I know.. I missed him..
His sister & mum later fetched me home..
All the way.. It was traffic jam..
The moment I reached home.. He had just landed on KL..
We talked & we cried...
He complaining that I didnt hug him back & cry just now...
& I was really so regret.. because I know, I wouldnt have the chance for the next 6 months again...
I cried so sadly.. I missed him... I MISSED HIM!
He landed on Japan on midnight 6am+..
He called me.. & I was so happy to receive his call..
He told me that his cousin was coming to him..
& he said he will call me before his next flight in the afternoon..
All the while.. I waited for him..
When I woke up, I saw his post on FB, & I missed him again..
In the afternoon, I received his call using his cousin's phone..
Very soon, he hang up the phone & flew to Las Vagas..
I waited for him until midnight~
All the while.. I don't know how many text I had sent him..
Finally, He texted me using his US number~!
& he told me~ he missed his flight to Orlando..
& hav to wait for 2.5 hours for the next flight to Salt Lake transit to Orlando..
I acc him until his nex flight & went to sleep..
The next morning.. He reached Orlando at around 1pm our time..
& it was midnight over at US~
Later, his fren fetched him to supper & home..
He on9 straight after he reached home~
& we skype...
It's true that I can see how he care bout me..
He don't want me to keep waiting for him...
& all the while.. He will contact me at the very first time as he can..
He is really a good guy.. & he really treat me like a princess..
It's true.. He never disappointed me..
I really feel so happy whenever I see him on9, his face, heard his voice..
all of that comfort me a lot...
Many & many things had happen on me all the while..
Some happy.. & some too sad for me..
& I am so lucky to have him with me..
He worry about me.. He even tried his best to help me solve my problems..
Seriously.. He is really "bu pa si!"
What else I can say about him?...
He willing to involve himself in all stuff I do.. & faced all problems with me..
I know, he don't wan me to feel alone..
& he really wan me to be happy from deep inside his heart..
Thanks baobei ♥ babie...
The night before he fly back to Florida,
He gave me a very precious gift...
& he told m...
It is the promise...
He will come back to me soon...
touched ♥ I feel... :)
Now that he had gona back Florida for 4 days...
We skype everyday...
We even text a little...
He told me he dont care bout how much he spend..
He just want me to be happy...
Baobei bie...
thanks for everything that you have done for me..
I really appreciate it a lot..
Everytime, u think about all for me..
You care about everything around me..
you even asked ur mum to ask me out for lunch! (to have close relationship?)
& always talk bout me with ur mum...
I am glad of what you had told me...
baobei... I am really glad to be with you..
& I love you..
like I told you, I don't trust promise...
But for now.. Promise will be the one to keep me strong..
I will wait for you...
ok? ♥ :)
I think this post is really "geli" enough for all of our friends..
& more of these "geli" words I will continue to write for you in ur mail..
ok? ♥ ♥ ♥ ><
Babie, I miss you.. A lot.. ♥
*hugss* :)
I miss him a lot~
That day, on 7th jan..
the last day he staying in malaysia...
I accompany him went around & rushed for everyhing that need to be done..
His medicine, pray, laptop, jeans...
& lastly.. He insisted wanna develop some photos out so that he can stick on his bedroom wall.. I feel so touch. Really.
Before depart to airport.. I spend a little time with him in his room..
I looked at him.. & my eyes started to fill with tears..
& I immediately look away.. telling him..
:" I cannot look at you, I will cry..."
n the tears slowly drip inside through my nose into my throat..
He was ready to go out..
& he hugged me..
In his arms.. I feel really so sad for his leaving..
Finally my tears dropped n I cried a little..
I told myself no.. I cant cry...
He wippend my tears away with his hand & hugged m again..
& I need to take a deep breath n wipped away my tears..
telling myself.. I cannot cry..
After that, we departed first to airport.. which his family wil come later..
He holding me all the way..
He checked in & we waited for his family at MCD..
& we started to take photo for memory..
He took with his family first~ & I was the last one..
Finally, boarding time...
we took all his stuff & stand outside the gate..
All our attention on him.. & also on me~
They expect me to cry..
but all the way.. I keep my tears inside myself..
finally.. he hugged me again..
Unfortunately, I wasn't ready for his hug.. & I didnt manage to hug him back..
Everyone looking at me.. & I was shy to cry..
I was hiding so hard... So hard so hard..
telling myself don't cry..
when he ready to walk in.. I had a strong feeling that wanna pull him back to me..
But I didnt do so.. I know, he still have to go..
The next moment.. I saw his mum crying.. & tears started to fill my eyes again..
inside myself.. I keep shouted for him to come back...
Looking at him at security point.. My heart broken..
I wanted to cry so much... so much so much so much...
but I don't wan his family to see me cry...
At the moment.. I don't know what else I can do..
I know.. I missed him..
His sister & mum later fetched me home..
All the way.. It was traffic jam..
The moment I reached home.. He had just landed on KL..
We talked & we cried...
He complaining that I didnt hug him back & cry just now...
& I was really so regret.. because I know, I wouldnt have the chance for the next 6 months again...
I cried so sadly.. I missed him... I MISSED HIM!
He landed on Japan on midnight 6am+..
He called me.. & I was so happy to receive his call..
He told me that his cousin was coming to him..
& he said he will call me before his next flight in the afternoon..
All the while.. I waited for him..
When I woke up, I saw his post on FB, & I missed him again..
In the afternoon, I received his call using his cousin's phone..
Very soon, he hang up the phone & flew to Las Vagas..
I waited for him until midnight~
All the while.. I don't know how many text I had sent him..
Finally, He texted me using his US number~!
& he told me~ he missed his flight to Orlando..
& hav to wait for 2.5 hours for the next flight to Salt Lake transit to Orlando..
I acc him until his nex flight & went to sleep..
The next morning.. He reached Orlando at around 1pm our time..
& it was midnight over at US~
Later, his fren fetched him to supper & home..
He on9 straight after he reached home~
& we skype...
It's true that I can see how he care bout me..
He don't want me to keep waiting for him...
& all the while.. He will contact me at the very first time as he can..
He is really a good guy.. & he really treat me like a princess..
It's true.. He never disappointed me..
I really feel so happy whenever I see him on9, his face, heard his voice..
all of that comfort me a lot...
Many & many things had happen on me all the while..
Some happy.. & some too sad for me..
& I am so lucky to have him with me..
He worry about me.. He even tried his best to help me solve my problems..
Seriously.. He is really "bu pa si!"
What else I can say about him?...
He willing to involve himself in all stuff I do.. & faced all problems with me..
I know, he don't wan me to feel alone..
& he really wan me to be happy from deep inside his heart..
Thanks baobei ♥ babie...
The night before he fly back to Florida,
He gave me a very precious gift...
& he told m...
It is the promise...
He will come back to me soon...
touched ♥ I feel... :)
Now that he had gona back Florida for 4 days...
We skype everyday...
We even text a little...
He told me he dont care bout how much he spend..
He just want me to be happy...
Baobei bie...
thanks for everything that you have done for me..
I really appreciate it a lot..
Everytime, u think about all for me..
You care about everything around me..
you even asked ur mum to ask me out for lunch! (to have close relationship?)
& always talk bout me with ur mum...
I am glad of what you had told me...
baobei... I am really glad to be with you..
& I love you..
like I told you, I don't trust promise...
But for now.. Promise will be the one to keep me strong..
I will wait for you...
ok? ♥ :)
I think this post is really "geli" enough for all of our friends..
& more of these "geli" words I will continue to write for you in ur mail..
ok? ♥ ♥ ♥ ><
Babie, I miss you.. A lot.. ♥
*hugss* :)
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Random~
HELLOOOO!!!!!!!!! ^^
ha~~ woke up in the morning~~ & knowing that my exam is coming soon~
nex tuesday & wednesday~
the patient interview which i had practiced oni once~! god..
i worry the simulte patient wil giv me weird weird respond leh~~
idont noe wat disease he/she having then how would i ask question n explore more~~
@@ the summative~~ i always take it easy as ther're oni 50mcq~
which i used to hav the harder n more complicated 1 in pmc~~
but i noe i shouldnt bahave like dis~~
should at least guai guai study n remember again~
ha....
okok~~ studying d.... ><
back to dis morning~
after woke up~
i quickly took a bath~ n clean the room n house~
it's too dirty la!!! i were too lazy to keep the house recently~
busy busy~ ><
n now~
i done keeping & sit in front of laptop~
ready to study...
thk bout the 50 mcq questions..
n pmc...
i reali like pmc a lot..
the lecturer...
the lecture notes...
the class...
a lot more better than imu~
mayb i am too degil~
but wat i thk is true loo...
ahh~~
nvm~~ everything is fine.. at least.. =)
hm....
someone is at langkawii now~~
poor thing~~
he keep asking me go but i didnt follow~~
n now his sis also didnt follow~
n he is there alone~~
watching tv...
awwww..... poor thing!!
hahaha!! sorry la... now i feel guilty d~
but i got a lot to study leii...
if i go~ then sure get very excited n go everywher de ma~
how to study jekk.... right?
ok la ok la~~ nex time laa~
( 1 year later? ) lol!! haha~!
><
*miss u*
ha... he is goin back to florida real soon~
within a month..
i reali hop i that i can cope v every single emotion i hav..
i dont wan to make thing worse..
i noe i always do...
i cant control my own emotion when come to this..
ahh..
perhaps cry up to 3 months~ then i wil slowly get use to it d..
>< right?
yea...
no scare de laa...
half a year oni maa... few months oni laa
i somemre nid to study hard for my eos...
>< no prb no prb~
^^
should back to my study d...
bye guys...
i noe i long time didnt blog d...
sorry laa~~ ^^
i miss u guys too~~
especially my biaoge~ ^^
hope he doing well ther..
& remember i never forgot bout u!! =)
baobei biaoge leiiiiiii?!! hahaha!
hav a nice day guys~! <3
baobei wen. =)
ha~~ woke up in the morning~~ & knowing that my exam is coming soon~
nex tuesday & wednesday~
the patient interview which i had practiced oni once~! god..
i worry the simulte patient wil giv me weird weird respond leh~~
idont noe wat disease he/she having then how would i ask question n explore more~~
@@ the summative~~ i always take it easy as ther're oni 50mcq~
which i used to hav the harder n more complicated 1 in pmc~~
but i noe i shouldnt bahave like dis~~
should at least guai guai study n remember again~
ha....
okok~~ studying d.... ><
back to dis morning~
after woke up~
i quickly took a bath~ n clean the room n house~
it's too dirty la!!! i were too lazy to keep the house recently~
busy busy~ ><
n now~
i done keeping & sit in front of laptop~
ready to study...
thk bout the 50 mcq questions..
n pmc...
i reali like pmc a lot..
the lecturer...
the lecture notes...
the class...
a lot more better than imu~
mayb i am too degil~
but wat i thk is true loo...
ahh~~
nvm~~ everything is fine.. at least.. =)
hm....
someone is at langkawii now~~
poor thing~~
he keep asking me go but i didnt follow~~
n now his sis also didnt follow~
n he is there alone~~
watching tv...
awwww..... poor thing!!
hahaha!! sorry la... now i feel guilty d~
but i got a lot to study leii...
if i go~ then sure get very excited n go everywher de ma~
how to study jekk.... right?
ok la ok la~~ nex time laa~
( 1 year later? ) lol!! haha~!
><
*miss u*
ha... he is goin back to florida real soon~
within a month..
i reali hop i that i can cope v every single emotion i hav..
i dont wan to make thing worse..
i noe i always do...
i cant control my own emotion when come to this..
ahh..
perhaps cry up to 3 months~ then i wil slowly get use to it d..
>< right?
yea...
no scare de laa...
half a year oni maa... few months oni laa
i somemre nid to study hard for my eos...
>< no prb no prb~
^^
should back to my study d...
bye guys...
i noe i long time didnt blog d...
sorry laa~~ ^^
i miss u guys too~~
especially my biaoge~ ^^
hope he doing well ther..
& remember i never forgot bout u!! =)
baobei biaoge leiiiiiii?!! hahaha!
hav a nice day guys~! <3
baobei wen. =)
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
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